Bipolar - the illness where yin and yang are most obvious in their places. I say this in a relatively relaxed sense, purely looking at the positives and negatives, and the ups and downs of the illness. I want to share with you how I found the process of finding stability and recovery via doctors… Continue reading The Challenges of Bipolar ‘Recovery’
Recently I was out for dinner with a girlfriend when she received a call from her husband because her daughter wanted to say goodnight. Her daughter was feeling sad that her Mum wasn't there for the normal bedtime routine. I listened to my friend gently talking to her daughter, validating her feelings and assuring her… Continue reading The Abilities of a Young Mind
This morning I had what I would call a 'loud' experience. It wasn't 'noise' loud, but slap you round the face loud. I am a believer in 'The Universe', what you put out - you get back, you ask - and you receive, and what you need is presented to you. This morning I took… Continue reading My nudge from The Universe
I have led a pretty colourful life. A life I am so proud to say has been full to the brim with experiences. There have been crazy times, out of this world times, desperate times, loving times, petrifying times, eye-opening times and hilarious times. I have fought, I have won and I have lost. I… Continue reading The Colour of My Life
Overwrought by uncontrollable tears. I'm lying in the bath feeling alone and desperately sad. My boyfriend who was living with me simply didn't 'do' emotion, or 'my' emotion at least. He would dismiss my feelings, ignore me when he got home at night, telling me he needed quiet time. He had chosen a lively, talkative… Continue reading The Man I Let Treat Me Like I Was Nothing.
I recently had a trigger when a person considered me and my business a threat and reacted by being childish and rude. It hit me for six, I wasn't expecting anything of the sort. It took me three attempts at contacting her to realise that I hadn't actually made a mistake; she was being deliberately rude… Continue reading Resting B!tch Face or Peace?
I’m very open and have made it common knowledge the issues I have had with addictions in my past. It was my way of self-soothing, confidence building and life-enhancing the best way I knew how. I was a heavy drinker, a partaker in drugs and I gained all of my self-worth from men who wanted… Continue reading When Self-Soothing Turns Ugly
For years I used to feel the really strong need to assure people that I was OK and SANE enough to be a part of 'life'. I lived in fear of people knowing I had a mental illness as I feared the stigma attached. Since then I've learnt how to stop worrying about what others… Continue reading I’m Sane, I Tell You.
World Suicide Prevention Day was last Sunday Suicide is such a heavy topic, isn't it? Having been in the thick of it, and now working in the mental health arena, I have a lot that is stirred up on special days like Sunday, and my saddest memory from a very long time ago comes rushing… Continue reading It’s been a heavy last few days
What do we do when sadness comes a knocking? At times, all of us have something that makes us feel like hiding away in sadness. Often it's a loss of something, a relationship, a loved one, our finances, or perhaps something that just 'might have been' but wasn't. My deepest sadness is the loss of… Continue reading The loss of a Father